Happy Mother's Day:)

A day to be celebrated for sure! 

I told Nate all I wanted for Mother's Day was pictures with my kids.  I think I will make this a tradition every May. 

I absolutely LOVE this picture.  Thanks to Nate for catching this moment between my son and I.  Motherhood is such a beautiful thing.

These pictures with my kids remind me how lucky I am.  So lucky to be a mother, but even luckier to be THEIR mother.

I could cry just thinking how much I love these two little people and how much they have changed me for the better.  Will they ever know how much?  I truly often wonder this.  I can honestly say that I never knew how much a parent loves their child until I had my own.  There is no way to explain how deep this kind of love is.  And of course all of you parents and moms know just what I mean.  They are a part of me and I'm a part of them and without them a HUGE part of who I have become through this process would be gone.  They are my life.  My whole entire life and of course Nate is too - heck he's the other part that helped me create these two little beautiful souls - we must not forget that.  It's a gutwrenching thought to be without my children and I can't imagine my life without them.

My children give my life purpose and they truly make me find joy/beauty in the 'little things' everyday...and I love that 'SMALL' little detail.  That's HUGE.  Without them, I would never be at the park 4 days a week...I would never feel sand between my toes as often...., I would never crawl in the grass with a magnifying glass looking for bugs, I would never write the ABC's with sidewalk chalk on a daily basis, I would never know the true beauty of flying a kite with my son on a windy day, and I would never know the feeling of two little warm bodies laying next to me before I fall asleep...and these are just a few of the things that my life would be missing if it weren't for them.  I have truly found my place as a mom and I love it!  It's about learning something new every single day and it's making me a better person while I'm doing it.

(I'm not gonna lie, it wasn't easy getting these photos, but this one cracks me up)



 Being a mom is the hardest, yet most rewarding thing I've ever done!

Greyson and Sailor, I love you MORE than you will EVER know...

Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there....hope you have a fantastic weekend!
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Mondays are hard...

Because, well, I miss him.  Him being my sweet baby boy Greyson.  It doesn't help that they creep up out of nowhere.  Mondays are hard for the both of us.  Usually I have to carry him into my moms and he sits and hugs me until I have to leave.  On Mondays that is.  They are hard. 

I call and talk to my mom on my breaks to hear Grey's voice and to see what he's doing (everyday that is).  Our conversations are usually pretty "simple".....he tends to nod his head as I ask all the questions.  Therefore, he doesn't get that he has to actually talk into it sometimes so that I understand.lol!  I always get a "hi, momma!"  "Whatta ya doin?"  And we always say "love you" at the end.  So as long as I get those and all the nods in between at least for a moment I feel better.  On Mondays that is.  They are hard.

So, today was a Monday and I missed him, I miss him everyday.  I actually brought him to grandma Joyce's this morning because my parents are having painting done at their house.  It was a Monday where we built a fort before I left, I changed his diaper, and then I snuck out the back door.  It was just the easier route for me on this Monday.  I think just within the morning hours of school I called my grandma 3 times to see what Grey was doing.  And "they" know that it's Monday and that's all I say.  Our conversation today went like this:

Me:  "Hi, Grey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  How's my lovie?"

Greyson:  "Hi mommy!  Whatta ya doin?"

Me:  "Mommy is at school.  What are you doing?"

Greyson:  "Watching Cailou and eatin'."

Me:  "Oh you love Cailou, don't you?"
(some head nods there...)

Me:  "mommy will pick you up right after school."  "I LOVE YOU"

Greyson:  "Love you mommy"

and then the phone quickly disappears to the nearest adult.  See, pretty "simple" conversation but if it's what I need to do, it's what I need to do.

I LOVE the fact that Greyson is with family obviously and he loves being there, but somedays are just hard.  And on that note, I am officially on Spring Break in 4 more days + a shortened Friday.  That always helps.