Life...

has been a little hard for me lately...I've never really felt like this before and I haven't felt comfortable until now talking about it.  And unfortunately, that's just life sometimes.  I've been overwhelmed and very anxious.  Anxiety is the worst feeling and for me it started in the fall, shortly after Greyson's birthday in November.

At first, I thought what the hell is going on?  What's wrong with me?  I saw a lot of doctors, had numerous blood tests done and everything came back 'normal'...and so now I sit here and visit this blog where I haven't been in a really long time.  I haven't pulled out my camera in months and that makes me sad.  I've been taking pictures with my phone but it's not the same.  Photography is something I truly enjoy and capturing those little moments in our lives that go so fast are important to me.  I need to get back on track and I think I'm doing that but it's been a VERY SLOW process.  I have good days and bad days just like we all do and hopefully the good days start outweighing the bad. 

I cannot say enough about my family.  They have been here for me like no other.  They've been very worried and just like always when someone in our clan is down or something is wrong we ALL rally together man and it's something fierce.

It was probably two months ago now, but my mom layed in bed with me for a whole weekend and held me because that's what I needed.  As for Nate, he carried on like the wonderful person that he is.  Took care of the kids and kept the house going.  He was quiet though and I knew he was worried.  It's just so Nate...it's hard to explain.  I just needed my mom, but he was right there to listen, to watch, to feel what I was feeling and he never said a word he just stepped right in and did whatever he needed to do.  Basically to sum it up, my husband is truly an AMAZING person.  He just is!  And so is MY MOM!

So, basically I'm having some anxiety right now and trying my best to push through it.


Oooooooh, but these two.....talk about a breath of fresh air!  Honestly my night just got better when I uploaded these and looked at them.

And of course just because I might be a little anxious right now.....life is still busier than ever...Grey just finished basketball at the Y....and now he's all signed up for Tball this summer and some soccer in the Fall.

As for Sailor, we still need to do potty training.  It's def. not her fault.  I'm to blame.  She's more than ready but I'm not worried about it.  She will start pre-school in the Fall and is SOOOO excited!  She will also start dance class in August.  She's such a girly girl.

That's the thing about life, you never know what's coming.  But there's SOOO much good and my two kids help me see that every day.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend!  Happy Friday!